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  And he seemed to sense the precise moment that her eyes came to rest on him because despite the fact that he seemed engrossed in whatever the man beside him was saying to him, his head lifted and he looked directly at her. Their eyes clashed and for those few brief moments out of time neither moved a single muscle as their usual reaction to each other held them transfixed in a private world of their own. They did not openly acknowledge each other, though, neither by word nor by gesture. But it was clear that there had to be some way they were communicating, because the vibrations suddenly assailing the humid air beneath the canopy had everyone else going utterly silent.

  Heads swivelled, eyes growing curious as they flicked from her face to his face then back again. Julian noticed the thickening silence, glanced up, saw and grimaced ruefully. But his mother's cheeks went pink with anger. She abruptly turned her back on what she saw as her daughter making a spectacle of them-while the Arab standing next to Raschid touched his arm and murmured something to regain his attention.

  It broke the spell. Raschid lowered his eyes to listen to what his companion was saying to him and Evie slid her cool blue gaze back to where her great-aunt was now glowering at her in pursed-lipped disapproval. After that Evie and Raschid completely ignored one another. Evie went to have a quiet word with her brother before taking her place next to her mother, while behind them the makeshift church slowly filled up as the rest of the guests began to filter in from outside.

  By the time a rather flustered and watery-eyed Lady Beverley was escorted to her place by one of the ushers, the congregation had fallen into a tense, waiting silence.

  Then suddenly, piped out to them from the depths of the small chapel, an organ began to play. The sound of a wedding march filled the canopy at the same time as several gasps from the back rows heralded the arrival of the bride. And Evie couldn't resist turning in her seat to see a vision in white come gliding slowly down the aisle on her proud father's arm. Christina looked utterly enchanting in a flowing off shoulder gown made of the most exquisite Chantilly lace that was such a perfect foil for her dark-haired beauty. In her hair she wore a band of pale pink roses-the same pink roses that made. up her bouquet and were an exact match in colour to the pretty organza dresses worn by her five bridesmaids who followed behind.

  And she was smiling. Christina was so sure of her love for Julian and his love for her that there wasn't a single sign of wedding nerves in her.

  It was that which brought a lump to Evie's throat as she turned to look at her brother to see the exact same expression of pleasure and pride written on his face as he stood there watching his bride come towards him.

  I wish ... she found herself thinking wistfully, and was glad that Raschid was sitting several rows back from her so he couldn't see her expression.

  Would he sense it, though? she wondered. Was he sitting there witnessing this very English marriage and comparing what Christina and Julian were doing here with what could never be for them?

  They loved each other; Evie didn't for one moment doubt that love. And in a way she and Raschid had made louder statements about that love by upholding it in the face of so much dissension. But loving boldly and pledging oneself to that love before God held no comparison. For one was a solemn vow of commitment as legal and spiritually binding as life itself, whereas the other would always be a tenuous thing without that legal commitment, without the blessing, no matter what the God.

  'We are gathered here today to witness the joining of this man and this woman in holy matrimony ... '

  Beside her, she felt her mother stir as she lifted a lace edged handkerchief to dab a tear from her eye. Guilt struck a sudden blow directly at Evie's heart. The guilt of a child who was starkly aware of what a disappointment she was to her parent because Lucinda would never feel the pride and satisfaction that Christina's mother must be feeling right now, as she watched her daughter marry well and proudly.

  Oh, damn, Evie thought, feeling utterly depressed suddenly. And on an act of impulse she reached out to grasp her mother's hand. Lifting it to her lips, she kissed it gently-she didn't know why unless it was in mute apology. Whatever, her mother rejected the gesture by firmly removing her hand. Which hurt, hurt so badly that Evie was barely aware of what went on for the rest of the ceremony as she became lost in a bleak little world of her own faults and failures. Her failure as a daughter being only one of them. For she had failed someone else here today, though he didn't know that. Yet.

  Prayers, blessings, hymns, vows-Evie responded where expected of her without really knowing she was doing it. In a kind of self-defence she had blanked herself off from everything, walled herself behind a bland smile and glassy blue eyes that only a few people here today would be able to tell were hiding a worryingly unhappy woman.

  Sheikh Raschid Al Kadah was one of those people. He sat several rows back and to one side of her with his head lowered for most of the service-whilst his senses were picking up the kind of vibrations that made his blood run cold.

  She appeared tranquil, he observed, taking a brief glance at her under cover of coming to his feet for the singing of a hymn. Her exquisite profile looked as composed as it always was when in public. Her fingers were relaxed, her body revealing no jerky movements that could hint towards tension. Yet every single highly tuned instinct he possessed where Evie was concerned was telling him a completely different story.

  It had to be this damned wedding, he blamed. For what woman didn't dream of joining herself in marriage to the man she loved as Christina Beverley was doing today? What man would turn down the opportunity to legally bind himself to a woman like Evie if he had the chance to do it? He shifted restlessly, feeling a wave of angry discontent sweep through him at his own inability to make her feel more secure in his life. He was heartily glad when the service was over and everyone relaxed a little as the couple went off with their entourage towards the chapel itself where the register was apparently signed. It wasn't often he found himself yearning for alcohol but this moment was surely one of them.

  'On the face of it,' his companion observed beside him, 'if you remove the religious inferences, a Christian marriage is not so very different from our own.'

  You wouldn't be saying that if it was me marrying Evie, Raschid thought caustically through the fixed smile he offered in wordless acknowledgement. The band suddenly struck up again, followed by the dulcet tones of a solo tenor, saving him the need to offer a polite reply.

  Instead, he flicked a hooded glance back to Evie again. She was sitting straight-backed now, most definitely tense, listening to whatever the old lady in the lilac dress was saying so severely. Her mother had gone, joining the rest of the bridal party to watch the signing ceremony from which, it seemed, Evie had been excluded. By her own choice, he knew that, but it didn't make him feel any better for hearing her voice in his head saying, 'Imagine the headline beneath the wedding photograph, Raschid, if I took a major role in this wedding:

  "Evangeline Delahaye plays chief bridesmaid at her brother's wedding while her Arab prince lover looks on!'" she'd quoted caustically. 'Not "Lady Christina Beverley marries Sir Julian Delahaye at her beautiful Berkshire home"!' she'd concluded. 'I refuse to steal their thunder, and that's the end of it.'

  Which was also why she had asked him not to attend today and-arrogant as always-he had treated the request with the contempt he believed it had deserved. But now, as he sat here witnessing the way Evie had been isolated from something she should have been allowed to share, he began to realise just how selfish he had been.

  The old lady in the lilac dress was scowling, he noticed. Her wizened mouth spitting words at Evie who was sitting there with her lovely head lowered as she listened. Then the head lifted suddenly and turned. She had time only to speak one single word, but whatever that word was the old lady launched herself to her feet, sent Evie one last hostile volley then she stalked angrily away to go and sit herself down several rows back leaving Evie entirely alone. The desire to get up and go over t
here, sit with her declare his support for this woman whose only sin was in loving the wrong man almost overwhelmed him. Except he knew she wouldn't want that, for it would only cause the one thing she was trying so hard to avoid here. Talk, gossip, speculation, shifting the centre of attention away from the bride and groom and on to themselves.

  But, damn it, she looked so wretchedly deserted sitting there on her own like that! And something very close to a desire to commit bloody murder exploded in his chest aimed directly at himself for his own lousy inadequacies as the lover of such a beautiful and special woman.

  Evie could feel the sting of curious eyes on her as her great-aunt stalked away. It took everything she had in her to maintain an outwardly calm composure while inside she felt as if she was being eaten up by a million ravenous worms.

  'And there he sits, surrounded by his own kind,' her great-aunt had hissed at her. 'Pretending to be civilised when really he is nothing better than a womanising barbarian!'

  Evie would have found the words funny if she'd dared.

  But Great-Aunt Celia hadn't finished with her at that point, and the next volley that left the old lady's lips had not been funny at all. 'While you, you brazen little hussy, insult the Delahaye name the way you carry on with him! Do you have no shame?' she'd demanded.

  'No,' Evie had quite coolly replied.

  And that was the point where the old lady had stormed off, leaving behind her final shot- 'You could have been a marchioness, but you settled for being a slut!' ringing in Evie's ears.

  Had Raschid witnessed the little altercation? She presumed he had since she could feel the heat of his anger even from here.

  She only hoped he didn't decide to come over here in a gesture of support. It would only make everything ten times worse if he did. But Great-Aunt Celia's cutting demolition of her character had left its mark, and she was glad of her wide-brimmed hat because at least it was hiding the pained flush that was colouring her cheeks.

  Fortunately the wedding party came back into view then, and the whole congregation rose to applaud them as the newly married couple walked down the aisle with bright beaming smiles on their happy faces.

  Evie clapped with the rest of them, tears of genuine heart-warming emotion blinding her eyes. So it wasn't until the whole wedding entourage were out in the sunshine and everyone else began filing out after them that she realised someone had come to stand right behind her. Tilting her head back so she could see who it was over the brim of her hat, she found herself looking through a bank of moisture into the lean dark face of Sheikh Raschid Al Kadah. And her heart turned over. He was smiling down at her, the wonderful shape of his sensual mouth tilted wryly at one comer. But his eyes were sombre, their warm, dark liquid-gold depths burning with a grave kind of understanding that had her sighing as she tilted her head forward again to watch the final few stragglers drift away.

  'You look beautiful,' he murmured to her gently. 'But inconsolably sad.'

  'I think I want to run away and never be found again,' she confided. 'Do you think my mother may notice if I did?'

  'No,' he honestly replied. 'But I would.'

  Despite her heavy mood, a smile tilted the comers of her red-painted mouth. 'That's because you fancy the hell out of me,' she countered. 'Whereas my mother doesn't fancy me at all especially as a daughter.'

  'Then she has no taste.'

  'Gosh,' Evie gasped. 'I wonder if she knows that?' 'Would you like me to tell her?' he kindly offered. 'No. What I would like you to do, Sheikh Raschid,' she sighed out wistfully, 'is gather me up on your white charger and take me away from all of this.'

  'Right now?' A pair of long-fingered beautifully shaped brown hands slid around her narrow waist to turn her to face him. His eyes were still sombre despite the light banter they were exchanging. 'Just say the word, and I will carry you off to my palace in the desert and keep you locked away there for ever.'

  'A fate worse than death,' she pouted. 'You have horrible dungeons there with no windows to look out of. I know,' she disclosed sagely. 'Because you told me.'

  'I have beautiful rooms too,' he declared. 'Which overlook exquisite gardens that cost me an absolute fortune to irrigate. You may have one of those rooms,' he offered benevolently. 'Where I will visit you every day to ply you with priceless gifts and incomparable compliments.'

  'May I move around your desert palace freely?' she asked.

  He shook his covered head. 'You will be my prisoner,' he explained. 'With guards posted at the door to make sure you don't stray.'

  'What if I fancy one of your guards for a bit of light diversion?'

  'They would all be eunuchs,' he came back blandly. 'The kind of light diversion you are referring to will make them of no use td you.'

  'I don't want to go, then,' Evie decided. 'I'll be more miserable there than I am here.'

  'That's my girl,' Raschid softly commended, drawing her even closer to that lean, tight body hiding behind the flowing robes. 'Counting your blessings is always the wiser course in situations like these.'

  She laughed. He smiled, the smile reaching his eyes now that he had managed to banish the sadness from hers. And, dipping his head beneath the brim of her hat, he kissed her. They were by now completely alone beneath the wedding canopy, so Evie didn't really need to pull away quite as quickly as she did. Their mouths had barely warmed in welcome to each other before she was carefully separating them and placing some much needed distance between their clinging bodies.

  'Are you trying to seduce me in broad daylight, Sheikh?' she demanded mock sternly in an attempt to soften her rejection of him.

  But Raschid refused to play the game. 'No,' he said quietly. 'I was trying to demonstrate how deeply I care for you.'

  'What here?' Evie mocked that also, but this time the mockery was ever so slightly spiked. 'In front of a Christian altar, what will your God say? Or did the tent above your head make you forget where you were for a moment?'

  'My God is the same God as your God, Evie,' he answered very grimly.

  'Well, just in case you're wrong, I'm off, before we get struck down by a bolt of lightning or something,' she said, clinging to her bantering tone despite his much-much graver one. 'I'll see you later-'

  'Evie.'

  She had already turned her back on him when he said her name like that, making her go still as the muscles around her heart gave a painful pinch. Raschid wasn't stupid, she knew that. Those all-seeing liquid-gold eyes of his had caught the haunted look in her own eyes before she'd turned away.

  'What?' she prompted warily.

  There was a moment's complete silence from behind her that trickled down her rigid spine like a warning. And she closed her eyes, mouth gone dry, heart still pinching in protest at what she was struggling to keep bottled up inside her today.

  'What's wrong?' 'Nothing,' she denied.

  'The same "nothing" that has made you as elusive as a rare butterfly for the last few weeks?' he grimly suggested.

  'You've been busy. I've been busy,' she murmured defensively.

  'You've been hiding,' he corrected. 'And you are still hiding.'

  'I just need to get through this day with my dignity intact, that's all,' she sighed.

  'And you think that my kissing you here diminishes that dignity?' He sounded cold all of a sudden, as haughty as hell. Which was a bad sign. For Raschid a bruised ego always-always made him insufferably arrogant.

  'I did warn you not to come,' she reminded him.

  'And because I refuse to hide like you I am to be punished, is that it?'

  Put like that, he had a right to sound offended, Evie wearily acknowledged. 'You're a man,' she said dryly. 'Bedding one of England's most eligible females only adds to your standing, whereas I get called a cheap little slut.'

  'The woman in the awful lilac dress!' Raschid recognised instantly. 'The words match her sour expression.' Despite her heavy mood, Evie couldn't resist smiling at his caustic description of dear Great-Aunt Celia. 'To be fair,' she tw
isted around to say to him, 'she did call you a womanising barbarian.' A sleek, superbly drawn black eyebrow arched in enquiry. 'And you agree with her?'

  'Oh, yes,' she admitted. 'But then,' she added softly, 'I like you barbaric.'

  The darkening look in his eyes set her stomach fluttering.

  'I have to go,' she murmured, turning away what that fluttering sensation was tempting.

  'More evasion?'

  'I'll see you later,' was all she replied, and walked gracefully away.

  Stepping out from beneath the sultry-aired canopy was like stepping into another world. The sun was bright, the air crystal-clear, and the sights and sounds of celebration were everywhere.

  The bridal party was posing for photographers in front of a perfectly placed beech tree that looked as if it had been standing there for at least a thousand years, All about them their guests stood around in small groups watching them. A small army of white-jacketed waiters wove in and out with silver trays laden with fluted champagne glasses, trying to avoid the children who were running about like swirling dervishes and letting off steam. The band was still playing, and it seemed odd to Evie that she hadn't heard a single note while she had been with Raschid. But then, Raschid had that kind of effect on her. When he was there her world began and ended with him alone. Which was why this other world out here felt so very strange and alien.

  Julian caught sight of her and called out, then waved his hand in an imperious command for her to come and join them. Evie nodded her head in acknowledgement but took her time making her way over there. Her brother didn't know it, but she had no intention of appearing with them on any photograph. So she stopped a waiter to collect a champagne glass, paused then to chat lightly to the first group of people she came to. Saw, from the comer of her eye, her brother's attention become claimed by more pressing duties that made him forget all about her, and kept her social smile fixed firmly in place as she wandered from group to group-the only group she carefully avoided being the Arab contingent.